Friday, 30 January 2009

Doctors update!

God its hardwork sometimes getting a straight answer from a doctor although I have to say the one I have seen today is better than most!

I have got another Implanon ironically the only thing that would really sort me out is to have a baby! makes you laugh doesnt it! so ive got a bloomin sore arm and hopefully in a week or so a return to normal (well not normal because my periods will stop) but more normal than whats currently going on.

So thats it for me ive got a weekend at the laptop catching up on some work while the husband knocks down walls, joy!

me x


Im off to see the Doctor today, the combination of Mefenamic Acid and Noresthisterone is having no effect whatsoever and is really dragging me down, ive got a cold, cough, spots.......the list of ailments could go on for ever and im convinced its because my immune system is shot by all the bleeding so im off to see what helpfulness I will be offered next!!

Ill update when I get back, I fear ill return with another implant!

Thursday, 29 January 2009

Do I get the chance to have a baby?

It seems I only bother to post when I have got a dilemma but there you go it helps me think it all through if I'm typing as I think.

We have previously established that I am overweight, but here's the thing everything that goes on in my life is blamed on my weight. I had a contraceptive implant put in five years ago, I have just had my second one removed as I am getting to the age where I'm thinking of starting a family.

So here's my issue prior to the implant I was regular as clockwork very easy simple no issues every month. Since having the implant taken out - no ovulation, constant bleeding, major pains. Apparently it is nothing to do with the implant and is purely down to my weight. How can that be I was overweight before I had the implant but had no issues and now despite being totally worn out with it all the only option for me is another implant or constant bleeding, even though I want a baby.

So I am losing weight slowly, if it is my weight then it is being addressed, but in the meantime I've just got to get on with it with no hope of starting a family. Other large women have babies all the time, so why are my issues being blamed solely on my weight and what happens if I lose weight and the issues are still there but I'm two more years down the line???????

Tuesday, 13 January 2009

To lighter life or not to lighter life.........that is the question??

Well as the title of my blog would suggest I am more than a little overweight! and as I have three weddings to attend this year - one of which is in a far off distant sunny glamorous land!! I need to lose weight and fast. Now in the past I have had some success with Slimming World but fell of the wagon so find myself at square one. I saw Lawrence Llewellyn Bowen's wife on GMTV this morning talking about her lighter life success and its got me wondering.

Now I do not intend to ever be slim, I am who I am Ive tried to be "Normal" in the past! but everyone Else's idea of normal is not for me. I don't want to be a size 10 I never have been - well not since I was ten anyway! and never will be. I was happy at a size 18. I hear some of you thinking "size 18 that's massive! she must be a real heifer" well yes I am and no I do not consider a size 18 to be massive, my current size 32 is what I call massive. At a size 18 I was happy with myself, happy to be able to shop in ok not all the shops but most of them while still having the womanly curves I was used to. However everyone else in my life had very different ideas and were mortified that I was beginning to maintain that size and bullied me into beliving that it is as my best interests to be thinner. So 3 months later and another stone lost the pressure got too much and I cracked, piling all of the many stones I had lost back on!

So my dilemma, do I endure 100 days of lighter life at £66 per week and no real food passing my lips just meal plans in the hope of losing five stone to set me up on my own, while hopefully addressing the food issues I have got with the weekly counselling sessions or do I bite the bullet, swallow my shame and sign back up to a slimming world classes, get back on the wagon and start the long lengthy process all over again.

No matter which I choose my target size is an 18 and im sticking to that, if anyone is reading this what do you think? all thoughts appreciated.

Monday, 12 January 2009

The first of many!

I have been inspired by another blogger to set myself up with a blog to record my ramblings! My ramblings will be a mixture of........the daft things that happen to me on a weekly basis, my rants and raves on life in general and what ive eaten for my tea! as the title of my blog would indicate I spend a lot of time cooking and eating! plus some interesting recipes if they are worth reproducing!

me x